oh well!

wahaha!!! projects finally over!! woohoo!
just finish my last presentation today!! jon ask me if i memorise my script..
erm! i didn't purposely memorise actually! i just keep rehearshing at home untill without noticing, i happen to remember what i need to say! maybe memorise it indirectly? so is it my fault?! haha!too bad.i got no confidence in a presentation and tend to rehearse alot the day before cos i thought practice makes perfect. so if i happen to remember, shall take it as memorise lo!! LOL! well! many people thought i memorise and his not the first to say that! but i just can't be a natural speaker or a speaker to act as they can say something out naturally! adding to the point, i can't read anything out from a paper when i'm nervous so i normally bring the script but end up never use it in the end! and i don't see the point between reading from paper or not reading from paper since the content would be similar. just that i refer to the paper more and i will get the habit of keep refering to paper and it will actually get worst for me cos i just can't be natural! aiyo! dunno la! got rehearse sure somehow remember what you going to say what?! I shall learn to speak like its the first time i'm presenting the thing! so people won't thought i memorise and say me! hardcore! so hard to be human! when can i let everyone satisfied with me? think i will never! maybe when i die?! LOL! YEA!and i know eng is super important. especially in singapore now and i often somehow feel that if i can't speak eng fluently, people will look down on me(n0t all la!). if i could say, the main reason for me to be lack of confidence is because of eng. it really restricted me to talk to many people and in understanding of certain things! LOL!! i trying really hard to improve on my english but it failed la! just can't bring myself to pronounce correctly! erm..i got to say, i shall not think too much again!:)and i found limitations in blogging! cannot fully express my thoughts!! cos i can't tell everything to everyone! so i shall keep the rest in my heart and BRAIN!

PS: i'm not shooting jon or what! just a reflection on my presentation.