I read through my blogpost once..
and found that those posts were super duper emo or sad.just doesn't make people happy at all. LOL!! ehh. apologise for those posts and just being random. i watched a video of me and my friends and i heard one very unique laughter in it and came to realised that it was mine!! OH MY!! can't believe my laughter was so unique and hilarious!! no wonder people often laugh about how i laugh! i seriously don't know how i laugh untill like that but maybe its because i'm too unique!! haha!! just being bhb!!

update on my current health status

after surgery...
i think most of my friends especially joanna and amanda who sees me everyday.
will somehow realised that i have not been eating snacks like fries, tako balls, drumlets, nuggets and whatever. trying to lead a healthy lifestyle.
have been eating soupbase food like fishmeatbeehoon, pig organ and meatball soup, whatever that is soupy without chicken. Even for dinner, i have not been eating out for nearly a week. My dinner was like fish soup, fish porridge, meat porridge, those food that look like for sick people and WITHOUT CHICKEN AGAIN! think my family not going to eat chicken for quite a long time at home because of me! LOL! nvm! i think the guys never realised that there's no longer chicken in our lunch and dinner. WAHAHAHA!! i don't know why i cannot eat chicken. my mum only said its not good for me without any scientific or medical or whatever reasons?! But i secretly eat in school sometime.

today...
I went for hospital appointment alone to get my results.
Was super tired while waiting till i fell asleep untill it became my turn.
Doctor told me that....
It was confirmed non-cancerous( as i expected) LOL!!
So being not so suprised yet doesn't want to be suprised(meaning that would be cancerous)Its just a fibrocystic change and doc say not to worried where there should be not much of problem. Next appointment will be 6month later. There's actually still alot of particles which i do not know how is it called in medical terms.YUP! everything will be alright. This has been what i always told myself.
I believe that i'm blessed and could overcome whatever obstacles.
I hope and believe that life won't be so unfair.
I believe that no matter how much i fall, i'm still able to stand up.
After all these, i learnt to appreciate my friends, family and relatives.
GOSH! *I'M TEARING*
too gandong.

I don't know why..
But friends do forgive me sometime, i don't really know how to express my feelings sometime. i often kept secrets within myself. i'm bad in words. i'm worried to be a burden. i just want to let people to be happy around me.

sometimes i think i damn dumb.
i just couldn't control myself from being that dumb.
when i'm too tired, i can't get myself to do work.
mixed feelings right now.don't know what i typing right now.
i know my english cmi. forgive me for the poor language.

Bye friends!!:)