Surgery date was set on the 30th Dec.
One day right after my BIRTHDAY!! it somehow feels like a "Birthday Gift" to me
(another memorable scar that will stay with me forever).
Same surgery will be done just like the previous one and there's nothing i look forward to.

Went for biopsy today.
The doctor upon seeing my scar, got quite a shocked having to know i actually had an operation before. While doing the biopsy, she said something like "at such a young age, and you need to go through so much things" in a sympathic tone.
Right at that moment when i heard what she said, i was on the verge to cry, but i hold on to it.
After the biopsy, mum keep asking me questions, blaming me on this and that, how the food i ate being unhealthy, kept on complaining..felt kind of pissed off. As if i wanted all these things to happen on me. I thought i was healthy enough,i never smoke, never drink and i don't pick on foods! i even eat more veg than most of my friends! This is how life beingg unfair. So mum keep nagging on me even till we reach the mrt, she was still complaining non stop untill it hit my limit and i started crying from novena to bugis station. I tried to stop my tears from flowing, but it couldn't be fixed. I swear i won't want to cry anymore, its so embarassing to cry in the public.

life

i went back to the hospital two days ago to get the results after the surgery to get rid of that tumor/lump. They took a test or that lump thingy and the good news is........IT WASN'T CANCEROUS! cool! ya! great news! then they did a ultrasound for me again! a tumor was found right beside it. The person who did the ultrasound was like in a state of confused. dunno what to do. so she asked me to wait outside the room and she called the doctor down. they asked me in again and doctor told me to do another type of scanning. it wasn't a nice one! LOL! so yup..came down to get the results of that new tumor days after. doc told me that it look kind of strange and seems like more serious than my previous one cos there's the white spots thingy on the tumor and told me alot of medical term which i couldn't understand. felt kind of hopeless at that point of time. like why is it me again...haha! i striked 4D! zzz
At that point of time i felt like crying though i knew crying is a stupid way since it can't help to remove. its not the end of the world, just another tumor which love me and choose to be with me. so doctor told me to do another biopsy for me to test whether its cancerous or non-cancerous but either way i will need to do another operation AGAIN to get rid of it! this time, operation doesn't sound scary to me, but i hated the sight of the scar and wounds!

I knew the worst case doesn't happen to me, there's others who suffered more. I respect them even more after i get to experience these things. JIAYOU!:)its not the end of the world yet.

JIAYOU!!

i'm feeling so sick now but still need to study!
totally no motivations though i know everything will end on THURSDAY!!
the 3 weeks holiday doesn't feel sufficient to me though i look forward to it.
cos i still need to do the stupid ma2 project during holi!!
totally no idea why i need to do that...
HOLD ON FION!! DON'T BE A LOSER!!

hope my gpa don't drop again or i will get nagging from mum again!!

i shall put an end to my pessimistic period.
there's no time to dwell about everything.
to be practical, think about my future ahead....

i hate the way i am now.
i hate it when i know there's something wrong again.
i hate it when the doctor told me about it and i'm still able smile to him.
i hate all the check ups and going to hospital alone.
i hate to make people worry about me.
i hate my mum who keep asking me all the things i don't even know.
i hate for not knowing the reasons for everything.
i hate to hide alone in the room to cry.
i hate to put on a fake smile.
i hate to HATE!!

maybe its just all the karma...

i'm the root of problems...

what a boring life i had!!
zzz
but i will continue provide entertainment for my friends(look up!)

let me post about LTA job!
DON'T LISTEN TO THAT IDIOTIC WOMEN!!
she just so pro in making people trust her.
all because of her our pay is delayed.
and i don't understand why its only a month and people just couldn't wait.
stop asking me when the pay is cos i dunno!
if the pay haven't come, i'm also the victim!!
i dunno why she want to do all this crap for!
DAMN HER!! lol!!

i feel so heaty right now!! outbreaks of pimples!!
face becoming so red!! zzz.............

JOBsssssss

update on my recent jobs
Loreal warehouse sales with peijuan, a 3 days job of having the role of packers where my jobscope is to pack every stuffs the customer bought in a plastic bag and tie it with the cable tie! LOL!! the sales was really crazy where all the stuffs there are sold at super low prices like a reduction of price by up to 80%. Working there just make me feel so tempted to buy everything!! andddd i really had fun for the job where i get to know jia en who has exactly the same birthday as me!! so happy!! then ting fong who i know because of huimin which lead me to know his friends , jin long and yong tian where we will always meet to go work and home tgt! really had fun with those people or else peijuan and me will be bored to death!! then some other guy like clarence( xiaodidi), shifu and some random people. i like the cashiers too!:)

then ytd! my third job for holiday!
to count the number of people walking towards citylink from suntec.
its the slackest job i ever get with the highest pay when i get to sit down in aircon just to look at people and PRESS! and i'm able to talk and gossip with the person( yingling) beside me about those people walking past!! wahahahah!!

no more watsons!!

Today is my the last day of my work at WATSONS! its actually kind of fun working there as compared to at Watsons at Causeway. The staff there are really friendly and good to me! i will remember the auntie from phillipines everytime say headache then very cute, blur blur de! LOL!! Not only that, i get to do cashiering this time! having to do cashiering is so much better than wondering around the stalls doing nothing but just arranging the stocks or replenishing the stocks. Time past really fast when i get to do cashiering! They actually wanted to extend me for 1 week! Joshua called me to continue doing because they are really satisfied with me! But! TOO BAD! i got another job coming up! the LOREAL warehouse sale at raffles convention there! from the sunday to tuesday! so joshua got to find other people to replace me!! gonna be a hard time for him! Wonder how will be my next job be!! temporary work are so fun! i get to experience different things in 1 holiday!! :)

and............

i found that there's alot of job available for me this holiday!!
i don't need to find and they came to me!!
even when i work in watsons, another company wanted to recruit me but i'm underage for it and i ended up chatting with the employees of the company!!:)

I'm working at watson now! Ya now! Right now at punggol plaza! Had been standing the whole day doing nothing..zzz..from 10 till now haven eat lunch! Super hungry now..gonna work till 18th:(

seems like my blog have been dead for a long time. I'm bored of this holiday:( nothing much for me to do except for watching drama, movies and reading story book at home. Did go out to shop. But i'm poor so one day of shopping make me ended up bankrupt for the whole week! So had to stay at home to rot. But i went out with mildred, bei and sok ee to shop around and watch movie! Had a great day! And i'm waiting for the photos to be upload by mildred:)

left with 1!!

yea!! i'm only left with 1 last paper!!
but the most boring module ever!! and of course! i haven't started studying it!
just going play the whole night tml then start studying!!
but my tp friends now all playing le la! can haolian to me already!
haha!! today after paper went to eat dinner with mildred edna and junkiat!! woohoo!
had fun talking to them in subway!! know alot of stuffs in DBF!! haha!!
next time shall continue!:D

oh well!

wahaha!!! projects finally over!! woohoo!
just finish my last presentation today!! jon ask me if i memorise my script..
erm! i didn't purposely memorise actually! i just keep rehearshing at home untill without noticing, i happen to remember what i need to say! maybe memorise it indirectly? so is it my fault?! haha!too bad.i got no confidence in a presentation and tend to rehearse alot the day before cos i thought practice makes perfect. so if i happen to remember, shall take it as memorise lo!! LOL! well! many people thought i memorise and his not the first to say that! but i just can't be a natural speaker or a speaker to act as they can say something out naturally! adding to the point, i can't read anything out from a paper when i'm nervous so i normally bring the script but end up never use it in the end! and i don't see the point between reading from paper or not reading from paper since the content would be similar. just that i refer to the paper more and i will get the habit of keep refering to paper and it will actually get worst for me cos i just can't be natural! aiyo! dunno la! got rehearse sure somehow remember what you going to say what?! I shall learn to speak like its the first time i'm presenting the thing! so people won't thought i memorise and say me! hardcore! so hard to be human! when can i let everyone satisfied with me? think i will never! maybe when i die?! LOL! YEA!and i know eng is super important. especially in singapore now and i often somehow feel that if i can't speak eng fluently, people will look down on me(n0t all la!). if i could say, the main reason for me to be lack of confidence is because of eng. it really restricted me to talk to many people and in understanding of certain things! LOL!! i trying really hard to improve on my english but it failed la! just can't bring myself to pronounce correctly! erm..i got to say, i shall not think too much again!:)and i found limitations in blogging! cannot fully express my thoughts!! cos i can't tell everything to everyone! so i shall keep the rest in my heart and BRAIN!

PS: i'm not shooting jon or what! just a reflection on my presentation.

:(((((((((((((((

Hi,Fion says she has no time to blog,but i beg to differ.cause she spends her free time on tv,dramas,slacking, etc. FIND EXCUSES ONLY LOR.haiiiiii

ANW.
STUDY HARD FION!!!! GOT FREE TIME COME TO UPDATE!!


PS: :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

National day!

HAPPY!!

I'm super looking forward to meet the hornists later!!
Have been super long that i never meet them:)
Everyone seems to be so busy untill tml we finally can meet at like 7pm plus!!
We don't intend to watch fireworks this time round which i think will be a good thing.
Don't need to every year squeeze with the crowds just to watch that few minutes of fireworks!
I rather spend more time with them chatting.so yea!! SEE YA HORNISTS!!
I need to sleep soon..meeting xueying at 8am to study?
Do you think i can wake up on time?
LETS HOPE SO!!! =))

maybe its just good to be single..

to be truthful. I do feel lonely at times especially when i see couples together(damn! sure alot people say me!)
LOL! sometimes i think getting attached is quite a good idea cos there will be someone to talk to when you just felt so lonely or has no one to talk to. but my thinking started to change recently, seen many cases,happy ones(felt so happy for them!)but not forgetting the heart aching ones and i can only feel sorry for them, i don't know how to help them because i lack of the experience to give them suggestions and was not good in words or consoling people.Love, commitment, loyalty,faithfulness, time & etc are all the key factors but how many could really do that when thinking of having a relationship? what i could say is think twice!( sounds like a commercial!)i really admire that guy who told me the reason why he's not in a relationship.(hope he's not lying)

Games day!

SATURDAY
met willie and kienan to go school for games day at 8am plus.
reach school and started having some ice breaking games then everyone was seperated into groups..
HAHA! and i happen to be same group as kienan,johnson,kiantiong,nathan,hwee sheng,edward and ernest.
happen to be a all guys team and year 2 & 3 team. no year 1 at all so we got no people to know la!
erm..the event was alright la just that i'm too tired to actively participate in it..
right after the event, i went home to bathe and rushed to take mrt to orchard to meet jingwen, yanling, siuyun,belinda,kiantiong,nathan,hwee sheng,piahwee and genli for durian buffet at goodwood park hotel!
we ordered the dessert buffet, the buffet not only have durian pastry but different variety of desserts.
After having that buffet, i realised that i'm not good in eating dessert.
Can't eat as much like how i eat those steamboat or sushi buffet, so i decided not to go for dessert buffet!
cos i will just waste my money there. went home after that, i forced to go home early to study the next day=(

Ernest trying to make kienan drop the grape!

Symtoms of stress..

its not that i don't want to update.
its because of i really don't have the time to do so. Have been really busy with meeting the project deadlines! just handed in CRM report today!! WHOO!! Friday need to hand in FF report and GEMS report. Followed by doing of powerpoint for RWPS and hand in of report! Lastly, MA1 report! one after one! and next monday got FA ca3, haven't start studying. I'M SUPER WORRIED!!! so many things piling out!! symtoms of stress start to show..mainly from my face, PIMPLES ALL AROUND!! HEADACHE!! ULCER! LACK OF SLEEP! PMS!! so don't try to irritate me!!!

HUIMIN AND SINGYEE!! I WANT PHOTOS MAN!! FASTER SEND ME SO THAT I CAN POST!!!

shagg

I have 4 projects on hand now. 1(GEMS) to be hand in this week, 2 of it to be hand on the week after and the last one on the august. Just finish editing my GEMS report, i think doing gems is a waste of time la. i did it just to get my module a pass because there is no credit units for gems. I just managed to reduce the report from 4pages long to 3pages due to the criteria given( report must be less than 3 pages)and i still have somemore content to fit in which means i need to cut on the number of words again!! HATE GEMS! but nvm, its never the worst anyway. After gems i still have the killer projects, here come the CRM combine with RWPS and FF, the datelines are super close, 29th and 30th respectively. Trust me, CRM and RWPS was tough, worst than FOM(now i realise how fun FOM was)and maybe i just need time to do those projects. Haha! our report like only a quarter done. so my friends, do bless me! LOL!!think i will have a hard time struggling for my projects and exams are near! it seems like holiday and exam just ended but my exam are coming back to me again!! I CAN'T AFFORD TO LOSE MARKS IN THIS EXAM ANYMORE! my previous result sux!! the worst ever result i have seen since sec 2! lol! hope that is just a nightmare!

small outing with the guys!

today finally had an outing with huimin,ivan,kim ann and jason!!
it have been years we never meet and contact and we finally went out to have a small gathering.haha!! it was totally fun today! had fun laughing while eating steamboat and i nearly choke a few times because of all the funny jokes and stuffs while eating!it seems that our character doesn't change much. except that jason become slimmer! congrats to him. oh! and hair become lesser! after eating we went to the BHG at bugis for phototaking session due to the lighting outside was kind of dark. phototaking was fun and funny also! first, we need to find a place with bright light then a place with lesser people and lastly someone to help a take photo. After we found a place, we stood at the place for 5mins and finally found someone to take photo for us and the weird thing is when we wanted to take photo the crowd came suddenly but we managed to take one but the photo was kind of dull(refer to first pic)Therefore, we decided to go up another level, to find another place for phototaking and it was a sucessful shot!!(second pic)woah!! FINALLY YO! then we went on to mac eat icecream, talk about our past, those stupid things we done tgt during secondary school and i bet it was super hilarious!! then home.....

yoyoeveryone!!
have been busy with projects lately. so i got nothing much to update.
today i had gems presentation and while waiting for presentation i took picture with peijuan!! hehe! then stayed at school till 10pm to do CRM proj when i reached home my bro started playing with me! erm no..should be playing me! he started using pen to draw on my arm and say alot stupid things! stupid brother! LOL!!!
this smiley is drawn by my stupid brother! HAHA!!

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MINMIN!!

FION FINALLY CAME TO BLOG!!
hehe..have been really busy these days with exams on last week and preparation for min's present and stuffs. Seriously, i just hope all the best for my exams and I got not much to comment about it except that I DID BADLY!! I'M SERIOUSLY NOT JOKING! though i have been joking for my entire life. Today is min's birthday so i came to blog especially for HER! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIN!!! LOVELOVE! HAHA!! We celebrated her birthday on yesterday. I went to meet her for shopping right after school and then bus to TEOHENG(sing k) with min! Here comes the surprise and singing of songs!! Then off to supper and homed.











( i got to say i super pissed off with someone now!! damn it!!)

randomness x10000000000000000000000

HAHA!
i suddenly think that my chinese name should be Ming Ting,Ye Ming Ting..
Since my eldest bro's name is Ye Ming Long followed by er ge, Ye Ming Wei..
But my mum say that its the fortune teller who help me choose my name as Ye Nu Ting.
erm..its kind of a wierd name..but nvm i will still love it!!cos this is a special and unique name to bring me through my bright future!=))
and yeah! i'm chatting with my er ge on msn now!
He damn random also(my family's culture)..chat to me in msn using chinese.I shall post over our conver here, its kind of lame la.
FION*GOGOJIAYOU!!!!유학 가서!! says:
why become so cheena
mwei™ says:
哈哈哈
FION*GOGOJIAYOU!!!!유학 가서!! says:
chinese not good don't use chinese la!
where are you?
what time come back?
mwei™ says:
我的华文not bad la
FION*GOGOJIAYOU!!!!유학 가서!! says:
lol!!
mwei™ says:
7.
FION*GOGOJIAYOU!!!!유학 가서!! says:
like real
buy dinner for me!!
help me buy dinner!
mwei™ says:
没钱
FION*GOGOJIAYOU!!!!유학 가서!! says:
go work no money!

mwei™ says:
你要吃什么？
FION*GOGOJIAYOU!!!!유학 가서!! says:
die la!

mwei™ says:
妹妹
FION*GOGOJIAYOU!!!!유학 가서!! says:
i want
anything
mwei™ says:
你要不要的
FION*GOGOJIAYOU!!!!유학 가서!! says:
anything nice can liao
mwei™ says:
好
无聊？
你再做什么？
FION*GOGOJIAYOU!!!!유학 가서!! says:
blogging
lol!
you not working meh?
mwei™ says:
ok then
i buy shit for you later
see ya

(Evidence that he ill treat me!! buy shit for me!! smelly brother!)

Friends do watch this!!! this is super sad!!

A song composed by a 17 yrs old girl that had passed away

English version of lyrics
Before I close my eyes for the last time
I wish to tell you I love you
In your embrace, don't wish to let go
In my heart, thousands of words I have yet to tell you
I used all my strength to keep my eyes from closing
After this farewell, there will be no more meetings, no more can I be by your side
But please don't forget
You promised me you will live on as well as you can

I'm leaving first, leaving for a faraway place
I won't be able to watch the sunrise with you anymore
I won't be able to wait for dawn
Erasing all the memories, is not an easy thing
But life & death are predestined, don't be too sad


在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
先走了 去了好远的地方
不能再陪你看日出 等不到天亮
所有回忆 抹去 却并不容易
生死由天决定 不要太伤心
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
在我最后一次 闭上眼睛之前
我想对你说我爱你
在你怀里 舍不得放弃
心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使尽全力 不想闭上眼睛
这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你 但不要忘记
你曾经答应我你会好好活下去
我 永远 爱你。

My friends! Do pray hard that i sleep early..stop watching tv and looking at my laptop screen!=))

update by me!!

I could only say this holiday is super and ultra Boring!!
mixed feelings here and there..haven enjoy the holiday!!
kept telling myself to start studying! BUT NO!! i just kept procrastinating..
giving excuses like i can start study tml!! still got time for me.
But i doubt so la..i guessed most of my friends had studied alot..
and i have been a great slacker since sem 2 till now..no motivation at all..
My grades deproved and my mum just kept asking me to quit school instead and go for work!! i hate to hear all these things! no one can understand how i feel now
INCLUDING ME, MYSELF AND FIONYENUTING!!0.o

OK,JUMP!
these are pictures taken last few days and i cut my fringe shorter..sy and ailing say my fringe actually see no difference..but i think got la!! and ailing! i forgot to take picture with you today!! so no pic of you and me!! next time uh!
ME,HUMIN,SINGYEE

My retarded friend.huimin!! had fun laughing at her expressions!!OPPS!

guess who took the picture?!

Before..

After!

UPDATES!

YO PPLE!

Fion's a damn lazy pig so i'm here to help update about her life! Since so many pple pestering her to update but she just refused to, HAIIII
(esp jk, seems very interested about her life huh! HAHA)



YESTERDAY.
She went to do her proj and met the awesomes (huimin & me) in town! Shopped and had dinner at fareast, then to her house. And i stayed over again! heeeeeeee
It was an awesome day as usual =)


TODAY.
We woke up in the late afternoon. hahaha damn pig right.
Fion's a good girl, she studied!
Slack and nice day!


MONDAY (8JUNE).
This is long ago but she haven't even update about it! (!!!)
PGD went to her house to visit her after her surgery!
Cam-whored alot. But where's the pictures man Fion!! Take from me and upload ASAP ok!! (In the meanwhile, there's some at my blog! singyeeeee.blogspot.com can go see yo)


OK done with a very brief update on her life!
Want to know more? Dial her hotline.


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HEHE!

i'm back from surgery! just slept for hours after surgery..
if i would like to describe the process..
they just did an injection on my hand , insert a tube into my hand then gave me an oxygen mask to breathe..the gas from the mask smell like some medication and i fell asleep after like 5sec!! LOL!! quite nice to sleep actually, it was so amazing! After about 1 and a half hour I woke up from my general analgesia, only felt a slight pain on the operated area and a bit of gidiness.
HAHA! i can't really move my upper body now and can't bathe for one day!! smelly fion!ANYWAY!! Thanks my friends for all the messages!! i'm doing really fine!=))I can feel everyone's concern!!

Tommorrow will be my surgery which start at 830am but i got to reach hospital at 730am..means i got to wake up at around 6am and nurse told me not to drink and eat after 12midnight..haiz! cannot eat and i'm worried that i will be very thristy!! need to wait till after surgery then can eat and drink..ok! many people asked me if i'm worried and scared..erm..now still not scared maybe when they push me to the operation room. But I start to worry already..i thought of alot possibility that will happen to me after surgery!! LOL!! I think too much la!
just hope that i can't feel the pain after surgery.everything will be alright!! so my friends don't worry about me!! PGD coming my house to find me after that!=))anddd...
I don't have the mood to study!! had been staying at home watching tv programmes these two days. boring life. i really hope to be a nerd!! at least i will be hardworking enough to study and score well for my exams!!

THURSDAY,04062009
meet up with ailing and singyee at vivo for shopping, phototaking and chatting for hours!!





FRIDAY,05062009
the last day of school for the term!
after school went to bugis street to shop!! i bought a sling bag! love it alot!!! hehe!!! pgd don't scold me k!!! hehe..after that went on to the steamboat restaurant with my fellow dbf 04 classmates though not all are there..but it was really a fun and memorable one!! had a great time laughing..BUT not the part where jk keep suaning me about how much i eat!!
my new bag found!!=))