Random post no.1
why do people often feel empty somewhere?
especially when you have nothing to do/doing some meaningless stuffs.

WHY?!! alamak!

Random post no.2
I want to change my body clock to normal.
But everytime i want to sleep, i feel like i have not accomplished anything meaningful for the day and don't have the mood to sleep due to the reason. Sleeping is like damn waste of time but i still love sleeping( cos i can dream of many impossible and funny stuffs, stop myself from worrying about this and that, etc). haha! contradicting me...........

Random post no.3
I often want to blog about happy stuffs but happiness seems to get away real fast.
Smiles are getting fake because i'm not that a happy girl.
I don't know what i have been thinking or worrying about.
I really hope to have a definite goal for me to work on.
A great interest of mine that would make me wanting to pursue it.
Have been getting lazier and lazier.
Interest to study = YES
Heart to commit into study = NO

Random post no.4
I CONTROL MY OWN DESTINY!!!
with a little bit luck that i lack of:(

erm...i'm blogging at such a timing (4.18am) the day after my blaw paper.
not studying for investment but just watching some videos! my fav past time!
felt kind of lost..i used to think that there's a chance for me to go university.
BUT NOWWW.......ITS A NO FOR ME! i really had no confidence and believed that i couldn't enter into uni. Taking into consideration of so many people around me are more hardworking than me, smarter and determined. I felt small:(
I can't imagine my future, even my academic now! I JUST HOPE THERE'S MIRACLE!!
I should probably stop dreaming! I felt that i've changed. i seems to get emotional easily maybe because of the monthly thingy. LOL! but it just felt so bad!!!

AWWWW~ i just can't wait for holiday to come!!! get me away from those stuffs!!
JUST LET ME LOVE TO STUDY FOR JUST 3 MORE DAYS AND I SHALL BE FREE FROM EVERYTHING!!
except for the friends part, POLY LIFE IS TORTURING ME!!!!
i don't even want to think what will happen tml!!