Surgery date was set on the 30th Dec.
One day right after my BIRTHDAY!! it somehow feels like a "Birthday Gift" to me
(another memorable scar that will stay with me forever).
Same surgery will be done just like the previous one and there's nothing i look forward to.

Went for biopsy today.
The doctor upon seeing my scar, got quite a shocked having to know i actually had an operation before. While doing the biopsy, she said something like "at such a young age, and you need to go through so much things" in a sympathic tone.
Right at that moment when i heard what she said, i was on the verge to cry, but i hold on to it.
After the biopsy, mum keep asking me questions, blaming me on this and that, how the food i ate being unhealthy, kept on complaining..felt kind of pissed off. As if i wanted all these things to happen on me. I thought i was healthy enough,i never smoke, never drink and i don't pick on foods! i even eat more veg than most of my friends! This is how life beingg unfair. So mum keep nagging on me even till we reach the mrt, she was still complaining non stop untill it hit my limit and i started crying from novena to bugis station. I tried to stop my tears from flowing, but it couldn't be fixed. I swear i won't want to cry anymore, its so embarassing to cry in the public.

life

i went back to the hospital two days ago to get the results after the surgery to get rid of that tumor/lump. They took a test or that lump thingy and the good news is........IT WASN'T CANCEROUS! cool! ya! great news! then they did a ultrasound for me again! a tumor was found right beside it. The person who did the ultrasound was like in a state of confused. dunno what to do. so she asked me to wait outside the room and she called the doctor down. they asked me in again and doctor told me to do another type of scanning. it wasn't a nice one! LOL! so yup..came down to get the results of that new tumor days after. doc told me that it look kind of strange and seems like more serious than my previous one cos there's the white spots thingy on the tumor and told me alot of medical term which i couldn't understand. felt kind of hopeless at that point of time. like why is it me again...haha! i striked 4D! zzz
At that point of time i felt like crying though i knew crying is a stupid way since it can't help to remove. its not the end of the world, just another tumor which love me and choose to be with me. so doctor told me to do another biopsy for me to test whether its cancerous or non-cancerous but either way i will need to do another operation AGAIN to get rid of it! this time, operation doesn't sound scary to me, but i hated the sight of the scar and wounds!

I knew the worst case doesn't happen to me, there's others who suffered more. I respect them even more after i get to experience these things. JIAYOU!:)its not the end of the world yet.

JIAYOU!!

i'm feeling so sick now but still need to study!
totally no motivations though i know everything will end on THURSDAY!!
the 3 weeks holiday doesn't feel sufficient to me though i look forward to it.
cos i still need to do the stupid ma2 project during holi!!
totally no idea why i need to do that...
HOLD ON FION!! DON'T BE A LOSER!!

hope my gpa don't drop again or i will get nagging from mum again!!

i shall put an end to my pessimistic period.
there's no time to dwell about everything.
to be practical, think about my future ahead....